| just a kid |
[Nov. 26th, 2009|03:10 am] |
who doesn't listen.
i could see this getting pretty self loathing again. |
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| rain check on a clear day. |
[Aug. 31st, 2009|04:43 am] |
there's a countdown and i can't hear it.
there's a wall and i can't see it.
i'm getting comfortable with being uncomfortable. |
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| it seems |
[Aug. 29th, 2009|04:52 am] |
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as though every time i take a step forward in one aspect of my life, i'm being forced to take a step backwards in another. this is of no consequence of the former step, just seems like sick coincidence. point being: i'm so sick of breaking even. no one likes to lose, but it seems i've been giving it my best shot. mile long chances missed by miles. fuck it. if i'm going down, i'm doing it swinging and swimming this time. |
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[Aug. 16th, 2009|05:19 am] |
lately, my hands shake too much for the pen.
this is just the down time before the pills set in.
i'm starting to think that joel and clementine had it right the first time. |
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| 8395 days. |
[Jun. 20th, 2009|12:39 am] |
give or take.
still pretty clueless. |
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| progression. regression. digression. |
[Mar. 4th, 2009|01:51 am] |
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sabotage your plans for success because you think you deserve to never leave. kind of like how if it weren't for planes, we'd never know there was anywhere else other than here. my eyes have gotten used to you not being around so much anymore, but my chest hasn't. withdrawals for the better version of you and me. i'm my own dead end relationship. too stubborn to leave myself. |
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| dear life, |
[Feb. 21st, 2009|04:05 am] |
you're doin' a hell of a job keeping me on my toes.
keep it up.
love,
interested |
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| back. |
[Feb. 9th, 2009|01:17 am] |
yeah.. it's a big deal to me.
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| hey, |
[Jan. 28th, 2009|04:15 am] |
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how stupid do you feel? |
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| kiss me, now that i'm older. |
[Jan. 14th, 2009|12:52 am] |
let's move across the county and talk about nothing but home.
the right direction. just never the right material.
sorry kiddo. i'm lonely, not desperate. |
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| symptoms of being awake. |
[Jan. 11th, 2009|02:51 am] |
committed to the commitment.
'addicted to being addicted.'
remember?
nyquil, tylenol pm and bynadrel.
over the counter sleep cocktail.
you're starting to wear off. |
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| more downs than ups? |
[Nov. 17th, 2008|02:17 am] |
not really. the last few weeks have been a blast. life likes to keep me in check though. making sure i remember things can always fall through or apart. breaking even and out of bad habits. still keeping you though. just so you know, you can falter and still not end up like them. i love making mistakes.
"the capulets and montagues have got nothin' on us." |
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| never happened syndrome. |
[Nov. 12th, 2008|03:24 am] |
two people waiting on the same thing from eachother. or maybe it's just me.
i'm not making sense anymore.
you should see my legal pads.
tonight's one of those nights when the words could just come pouring out, out loud. too bad no one's awake. |
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| gearing up. |
[Oct. 24th, 2008|04:06 am] |
i should probably be watching t.v. right now instead of reading over lines that don't matter anymore and thinking of things that i can't change. either way, i'm wasting my time. at least i'd be entertained on my couch.
the glass isn't really half full.
and it's not really half empty.
but, there's definitely water in it. |
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